Thursday, 4 February 2010

New Persona?

I just want to go somewhere and cry.

I don't want to go to school tomorrow.
I don't want to see anyone.
I don't want to be fat anymore.

I'm exhausted. Just tired of everything that is wrong or could go wrong with my life.

I want to go to sleep and never wake up.

The solution is pretty much simple.

I wouldn't mind seeing people.
Andrew might ask me out (finally).
I'd be skinny.

The solution: stop eating.

And yet I can't even do that right.

From this moment, I am locking myself in my room at every available opportunity and never re-emerging until I sparkle like fairy dust and I'm so light that paper wings would weigh me down.

I need to catch this dream and never let it go.

I will be Aphrodite and thin. Forget LaurafatLaura, I am Aphrodite from now; clean cut and beautiful.