Monday, 28 September 2009

You have got to be kidding me

Quick note to the one girl who's commented a couple of my posts: I'm terribly sorry, but I can't understand what you're saying! If there is any way that maybe future comments could be in English, then maybe I could get back to you :)

Anyway, today was...good. About ten percent of my year of 200 people now know about me and L, but I honestly couldn't give a damn. Let them talk.

I'm really dreading tomorrow. Day 4 of the water/general fast is not good for me. Last time I reached this stage, it was the day I broke down and cried, over a single slice of pizza. ONE EFFING SLICE. And my mam went for the weekly shop today, and bought me all kinds of things I usually eat wayyyy more than I should, but now I daren't touch.

For example,

- Curry Pot Noodles - these are seriously a terrible weakness of mine,

- Muller Fruit Corners - the strawberry ones,

- Oreos - no words to describe how much I love oreos,

and, probably the worst thing she bought, because I don't know how I'm gonna avoid this one;

- A whole Victoria Spongecake.

For heaven's sake, it's even got the cream and jam I absolutely adore. I need serious help with this one guys, she's gonna know something's up if I don't eat that. The rest I might be able to get away with. Oh, just so you know, I don't usually get the spongecake or the fruit corners, they're like a treat. And she must have the worst timing in history to get me them now. Sometimes I wish she wasn't so darn nice.

Exercises a bit later, I think, when my mam's disappeared downstairs. And then obviously I'll be joining her when she does hers. And yay, she bought me the citrus green tea! And I'm totally over the moon, because while less than 3 calories was excellent yesterday, this new tea has ZERO CALORIES(!!!). I thought I'd died and gone to heaven when I saw. Plus, it tastes a hell of a lot nicer.

Anyone who can help me figure out a way, or ways, to avoid eating all the horrendous crap she's bought me would be greatly appreciated. I'm at a total loss. I am NOT giving up now; I completely, point blank refuse, to give up.

Thinking, thinking.

Staying strong, thinking thin,


Theyouthk said...

hey i love you're blog btw. I am too pro ana and in fact managed to get down to 7 1/2 stone at my best point!! which i was really proud of. only i've relapsed in the last year and gone back up to 9 10! i dont want to be fat anymore! (btw im crap with pounds so cant work it out) i mean thats seriously poo. I really need to get back into my old habits, so thankyou you're blog really helped me, and i think i will continue reading for my thinspo!

skinnylove♥ said...

Wow, I'm so flattered that you consider my blog to be that inspiring! Hahaha, that's interesting, 'cause I don't get how stones work :')
The scales I use only have kg - they're really terrible scales, lol - so I used my phone to convert to pounds :)
I don't want to be fat either! I started blogging so I could let out what I was feeling & dealing with without letting everyone in my life know about it. I wish you the best of luck!

Anonymous said...

I know you wrote this ages ago, but for the future, but ask your mum if you can eat up stairs, then throw it away in a plastic bag, or down the toilet. It just play with it in front of her and hopefully she won't know that you didn't eat. Or just throw away a slice when she's out... Just try to get rid of it asap