Sunday, 11 October 2009

Thinspo Tunes.

I have to keep reminding myself that this isn't going to happen overnight. Every time I look in the mirror - about twenty/thirty times a day - I just get closer and closer to giving up, because I feel like nothing's happening. And that's when I remind myself that all my stupid weight won't just drop off immediately, no matter how much I want it to. Can't wait for the fitness session tomorrow, it'll really make me feel better about myself. I'll post tomorrow night to let you all know how it went.

Anyway, I've found a few songs that, although they're not about eating disorders, provide me with a bit of thinspo because I think the choruses/lyrics could be interpreted in that way. First one is "Beauty from Pain" by Superchick;

After all this has passed, I still will remain,
After I've cried my last, there'll be beauty from pain.
Though it won't be today,
Someday I'll hope again,
And there'll be beauty from pain.
You will bring beauty from my pain.

The next is "Bodies" by Robbie Williams;

All we’ve ever wanted
Is to look good naked,
Hope that someone can take it.
God save me rejection,
From my reflection,
I want perfection.

And the last is "Nobody Knows" by Pink. For this one, I think all the lyrics could apply, but I'll only post the most relevant so this post isn't miles long;

Baby, oh the secret's safe with me,
There's nowhere else in the world that I could ever be,
And baby don't it feel like I'm all alone,
Who's gonna be there after the last angel has flown?

Tomorrow I'll be there my friend,
I'll wake up and start all over again,
When everybody else is gone,
No no no.

I hope these help anyone out there who's struggling at the minute, I've found them to be great inspiration, especially Nobody Knows; how Ana is there even when it feels like nobody else is, and that nobody else knows about it.

I purged again after my post yesterday; I attempted to eat a different kind of soup with less calories and still couldn't bear it. I haven't even been tempted to eat anything today because I know how it will end. Plus, I'm not even hungry. If this keeps up, I'll have dropped 7lbs by Halloween no problem - fingers crossed!

Staying strong, thinking thin,